[Delivered live on New Year's Eve, 2017]

How do you know when to fight for something, versus, how do you know when to let go?

How do you know when to hook up to the life support machines, and when do you choose to allow someone you love die?

…Oh, did those sound like rhetorical questions? My bad, 'cause I’m genuinely asking. I hope ya’ll didn’t come here for answers tonight, 'cause all I got is questions. Like, I thought I had enough answers to this question to write a whole sermon, but then I saw the new Star Wars movie and I don’t even know who I am anymore. I saw a piece of myself in every character, even in the dark side.

This is seriously something I’ve been struggling with this year, especially recently—when to fight and when to release. It’s like my inner social justice warrior and my inner zen Buddhist are at odds.

Because there’s a lot of injustice happening in our world right now that needs to be met with resistance -- fierce, strong, compassionate resistance. But where does the idea of resistance belong in the heart of a spiritual warrior who has been called to resist nothing?

I met a young teenage girl at a church in Carson City a few months ago, who had just failed her probation drug test, and was awaiting the judge's verdict on whether or not she would have to return to jail for 6 months. She was absolutely terrified. There were a number of hoops she could jump through to fight it, but mostly she felt the whole thing was out of her control. She told me the only reason she had finally stopped fighting the whole thing was because she sat down in her sadness and made a list of all the reasons she thought God might be sending her to jail:

1) No more survival (she was homeless, and in jail she was guaranteed food and shelter)
2) To force her sobriety (which she had been struggling with in the outside world)
3) To teach others in jail about God (during her last stint in jail, she taught other young girls about the power of faith, and positively affected their lives)

Sometimes our mistakes come with consequences we want to defy. Other times the mistakes of our corrupt and unjust system weigh down on the innocent. Either way, through faith, we can trust that God is always leading us to where He wants us to be.

So, I asked God this question, about fighting vs. releasing, and I heard three answers in return:

1. Follow the signs –whatever they are. Pray and then obey.

2.Remember change is the only constant. So, if you’re fighting to change a system for the better, then fight. But if you’re fighting to hold onto a system or an old version of yourself, it’s probably time to just…let…go.

3. Whenever you approach this fork in the road, do I fight or do I release, take just a moment to totally allow whatever it is you’re fighting. Even if you know you must fight soon, take just this moment…and let the storm sweep you away.

So, let us do that tonight—take all the perceived injustices of our personal lives and our world, and, just until midnight, let’s completely allow them to be. And through this allowance, we will release 2017.

Dear Ms. Morales,

I am Reverend Levity with Alchemist Theatre. We are holding a 30 day pad drive to collect menstrual products for our 42 Title I schools in Washoe County. I was told to reach out to you to see about distributing the products. Our main goal, though, is to actually get these products INTO the bathrooms (at least one bathroom in as many Title I schools as we can), not just send the products home with girls in need.

We want to eliminate the girls' need to go to the office or the school nurse to ask for donations; we want to minimize their time spent in the bathroom, and reduce the shame that goes with needing help, or getting your period unexpectedly.

Ideally, once approved, we would host a box-making party at Our Center (the LGBT youth center on Wells Ave), and decorate small boxes to hold the donations that are then placed in the bathrooms. We want to decorate the boxes with positive phrases about being on your period, and do away with all the shame-inducing popular idioms. 

Can you please inform me of what steps we need to take to get this approved? Our drive ends on Friday, and we have collected thousands of donations. Here's the article in the RGJ: http://www.rgj.com/story/news/2017/10/13/group-fill-pods-pads-washoe-county-school-girls/763651001/

Thank you for your time! I look forward to hearing from you,

Jessica Levity,
Alchemist Movement, LLC

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sermon by Reverend Levity

Ladies, and Gentlemen,
 
Welcome…to hell. Or, do I even need to welcome you to a party you’ve already been at for years? Is it hot and smoky in here? Or is it just July in Reno?
 
What is hell – if there even is such a place? And how did we get here? Did we sin? Do we need to pay the price, or, do we just need to wake up? What if the worst part of hell is that you don’t even realize you’re in it?
 
Dante’s Inferno is the first chapter of The Divine Comedy, where our protagonist finds himself on a journey to the center of the Earth, into the depths of hell. He’s scared but he knows his journey is being divinely guided, and so he surrenders to it.
 
The first people he meets just outside the gates of hell are the fence-sitters—the people who are condemned to pace the shores of hell for eternity, ever-unclassified, poetic justice for their life of indecision. Spiritual stagnation. Most of the time we feel we can’t make a decision in our life because we’re scared, but in reality, our inability to make a decision is a form of selfishness, a need to blend in, a need to be liked, a need to be in control. A sin whose own punishment is that we may never know who we truly are and what we’re actually capable of.
 
Finally, Dante, lead by Virgil, enters the gates of hell as he passes under a sign that reads “Abandon all hope, ye who enter here”. A bit dramatic, don’t you think? Fitting, though, for hell is certainly a place for people who love drama.
 
In Dante’s Inferno, hell is made up of 9 concentric circles, each a level of hell corresponding to the greatest sins of the patrons who find themselves there.  There are 3 major categories of sin, each with further categories, that match to a particular circle of hell. The 3 main categories of sin, which later break down into what we know as the 7 Deadly Sins, are: 1) Lack of Discipline, like gluttony and lust (these are considered the lesser sins); 2) Anger and Violence; and 3) Fraud and Lying (the most demonic of sins, as they include a conscious choice to act against ethics of what you know to be right).
 
The tricky thing about our modern day Inferno is that NONE of our problems, or “sins”, are actually what they appear to be. Am I really addicted Gluttony, Lust, Pride, Envy, Anger, Greed, and Laziness...
 
Or…
 
Am I really just addicted to hating myself? And these  “7 Deadly Sins” are just how I take my hit.
 
God loves all sinners, even me, even me, even me. Well, HA! Joke’s on God, because I don’t love myself and ain’t no amount of grace getting around that.
 
Ya’ll wanna play a drinking game? What are we having tonight…Vodka? Tequila? High Fructose Corn Syrup (my favorite)?
 
Here’s the game. I’m going to elucidate these “deadly sins”, and if I come across one that resonates with a cycle you currently find yourself in, take a shot:

1. Gluttony: using food, alcohol, or drugs in non-moderation, often to fill an emotional void that never stays filled
2. Lust: being swept away by romance, co-dependence, or sex to fill an emotional void that never stays filled
3. Greed: Seeking more than you need…in order to fill an emotional void that never stays filled (are you starting to sense a theme here?)
4. Pride: placing your value in the things you accomplish and the accolades you receive, rather than in your divine inheritance
5. Wrath: Using anger to feel powerful; being at the whim of your external circumstances rather than at the helm
6. Envy: Having a consciousness based in lack, such that the happiness of another directly pulls from your own
7. Laziness: Being too selfish to make a change

 
9 centuries later and the human condition is still suffering in the same hell with the same sins that brought us here.
 
Despite the archaic, fire and brimstone imagery of Dante, what I love most about this allegory is the punishment for each sin is a poetic match to the sin itself. For example, the punishment for fortunetellers in the Inferno is an eternity where they are forced to walk forward with their heads on backward – a perfect opposition to a life where they attempted to forecast a future they weren’t meant to know.
 
As Alchemists, though, we don’t believe much in “sin and punishment”. In fact, we believe “sin” is its own punishment. God doesn’t need to punish you for being gluttonous, as gluttony comes with its own punishment when your blood-pressure skyrockets and you’re paying more for doctor’s bills than you are to take another hit of that drug you love so much.
 
If anything, God isn’t trying to punish us for sinning against him, He’s trying to warn us that these “Deadly Sins” are deadly because they stop the flow of our life toward a greater good when we become slaves to them.
 
We’re all human, and thus we wage a daily battle to learn control, moderation, and how to love ourselves enough to not need to take hits of these false idols that only fill our void temporarily. Imitation love –it’s never enough. We are trying our best, right? But, still, we’re human, and therefore we’re all “sinners”, metaphorically or otherwise.
 
The most interesting thing about Dante’s sinners is this: the only difference between the sinners in Purgatory and those in Hell is that the ones in Purgatory have admitted their flaws and are asking to better themselves; whereas those in Hell stand firmly behind their actions, going as far to justify them, to blame others for them, or to outright deny them. THAT…is the biggest sin of all.
 
It’s a matter of honesty, awareness, and consciousness. Hell is only hell because you’ve been refusing to the see role you’re playing in keeping yourself there. Wanting to make a change is the first step, then honestly reflecting on the areas you need work is next. Finally comes the time where you take responsibility to do something differently.
 
Hell is just a place full of perpetrators who think they’re victims.
 
It’s an illusion.
 
You’re doing it to yourself. You just need to wake up.
 
And now that you know this…and I know you know this because I just told you, you are no longer in hell. You’re beginning to see.
 
Ladies and Gentlemen, welcome to Purgatory.

“River of Words”
This month we called out to our community, via facebook and newsletter, for favorite quotes about the River as well as originals.  We also contributed our own.  Here are all of them.
 
I’ve known rivers ancient as the world and older than the/flow of human blood in human veins./My soul has grown deep like the rivers. 
Langston Hughes
 
The Tao is forever undefined…it cannot be grasped…Tao in the world is like a river flowing home to the sea.
Lao Tzu
 
Going up that river was like travelling back to the earliest beginnings of time, when vegetation rioted the earth and big trees were kings. 
Joseph Conrad
 
Denial ain’t just a river in Egypt.
Mark Twain
 
If anyone bring an accusation against a man and the accused go the river and leap in the river--if he sink into the river, his accuser shall take possession of his house.  But if the river prove that the accused is not guilty and he escape unhurt, then he who brought the accusation shall be put to death while he who leapt into the river shall take possession of the house that belonged to his accuser. 
 Code of Hammurabi
 
I wrote some of the worst poetry west of the Mississippi, but I wrote.  And I finally sometimes got it right. 
Maya Angelou
 
you don’t have to be a fire/for/every mountain blocking you./you could be a water/and/soft river your way to freedom/too. –Options
nayyirah waheed
 
One river, many wells. 
Matthew Fox
 
No matter how full the river, it still wants to grow. 
African proverb.
 
No man ever steps into the same river twice, for it is not the same river and he is not the same man.
 Heraclitus
 
You can’t cross a sea by merely staring at the water.
Rabindranath Tagore
 
May what I do flow from me like a river, no forcing and no holding back, the way it is with children. 
Rainer Marie Rilke
 
Have you learned the secret of the River, that there is no such thing as time?  That the river is everywhere at the same time, at the source and at the mouth, at the waterfall, at the ferry, at the current, in the ocean and in the mountains—everywhere, and that only the present exists for it, not the shadows of the past, nor the shadow of the future. 
Herman Hesse
 
There is another alphabet, whispering from every leaf, singing from every river, shimmering from every sky.
Dejan Stojanovich
 
The river in front of her was black. She thought it contained many things.
Gisele Prassinos
 
I had been afraid of the awful presence of the river, which was the soul of the river, but through her [Ultima] I learned that my spirit shared in the spirit of all things.
Rudolfo Anaya
 
We must begin thinking like a river if we are to leave a legacy of beauty and life for future generations.
David Brower
 
We may be floating on Tao, but there’s nothing wrong with steering.  If Tao is like a river, it is certainly good to know where the rocks are.
Min Dao Deng
 
Original quotes from our Reno community:
 
One of my greatest love affairs is with the Truckee River.  It courses through my body and life force, inviting me to jump in, swim, and obey.
Professor Daylover
 
Life is a river, and our past is nothing more than water under the bridge. 
Reverend Levity
 
I baptized myself by immersion twice, in a waterfall in the Truckee River by the light of the Jupiter/Venus moon.  A rock appeared to the right of me that fit my palm perfectly as I was to get out of the water.
Karyn Sanz
 
You can swim upriver, stand in the middle and do nothing, or flow with the river of God’s will. 
Michelle Groy
 
River of Words, 2.0
Here are the quotes cut, pasted, and mashed up.  Professor Daylover was humbled to rearrange the brilliance of the above authors for a new river of words.  This piece was performed in our show “The River” on June 21st.    
 
Going up the Truckee River was like travelling back to rivers ancient as the world, older than the flow of human blood in human veins.  I learned that my spirit shared in the spirit of all things.  No such thing as time.  There is another alphabet singing from every leaf, river, and sky.  But no man ever steps into the river by merely staring at the water.  You can swim up river or stand in the middle, but it cannot be grasped, Tao forever undefined. The worst poetry of our past is water under a bridge.  But I wrote, and I finally sometimes got it right, a rock that fit my palm perfectly as I get out of the water of my greatest love affair, the Truckee River coursing from the source and at the mouth, a legacy of beauty and life for future generations.  We must begin thinking like the river: no matter how full, it still wants to grow, a soft river way to freedom, not a fire afraid of the awful presence.  There is nothing wrong with steering, no forcing or holding back, the way it is with children.  May what I do flow from me at the waterfall, at the ferry, prove the accused not guilty and escape unhurt by the light of the Jupiter/Venus moon.  It contained many things, the river flowing at the current, in the ocean and in the mountains and back home to the sea, floating on Tao, whispering the secret: only the present exists, inviting me to jump in, swim, and obey.  For denial ain’t just the shadows of the past or future but the accused put to death. It is certainly good to know where the rocks are, and my soul has grown deep like the river of many wells. I have baptized myself in the river of dreams and am not the same man, not the same river. 
 
 

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